A Collage.

Something I decided I wanted to do from the beginning of my pregnancy was to document it. I just love the idea of showing my child photos and saying, "Look, I was growing you inside me. That little bump was you." I feel like pregnancy is such a huge time in ones life it is important to value every moment of it because it is so sort lived with such a life changing outcome.

So, from the day we found out we were expecting I made sure we started taking pictures. Some may think this is excessive but, I had been dreaming of this moment since I was in grade 5. I had always wanted to be a mom and here I was finally starting out on this amazing journey.

So, here is the wee one's progress as it grows inside me. Hope you enjoy seeing the changes.

My Hope has come.

I am not someone who typically looks backward, I feel like it just doesn't make sense when there is so much to look forward to. Occasionally though, it is important to look back to see how far you've come. That is where I am right now.

At this time last year things were pretty hard, we were going through lots and life wasn't easy. There were moments where things looked pretty miserable. Our love for one another was strong, but there was some brokenness inside both of us. I had just recently finished a job and was working a temp position with no employment opportunity on the horizon. I was so insecure and was feeling very lack luster. I just had no idea or direction.

Ben was dealing with final exams, and papers were stacking up. He was stressed and it really didn't help that it was looking as though I was going to be coming back home after the holidays with no job.

We were both hurting. I was crying a lot. I was asking God "Why?" questioning what he was doing in our lives. Was this necessary?  To be honest, I still wonder sometimes if what we went through was necessary. We learnt through it, he held us his precious ones. Hard things come, the world isn't perfect, even God hadn't planned for it to turn out this way but, with God's strength we endure and we grow. 

Now, a year has passed. We have such amazing Hope. God has given us an amazing gift and we are so looking forward to meeting the sweet child he is working to knit together inside me. God has melted my sadness, and even in the midst of the pain last year he was teaching me to cherish the moments. 

I pray that we will remember that time of pain and build into our child the lessons we learnt during the hurt. That we will have a great affection for the moments of bliss and cherish the small things. That we will rely on God to be our strength and also allow God to build into our child those same lessons, even if it means they too have to deal with hurt. That we will give our child to God and trust him to teach this precious one. 

Enjoy. December.

December is here and Christmas is right around the corner. I love this time of the year, I love the decorations, the lights, the music, I love the crisp air and the frost around the windows. I don't even mind the mall shopping, I know I'm crazy right! I am almost all done the shopping and only have a few small things to pick up.

Months are coming and going so very quickly and so very soon our wee one will be here. There is still much to do, the nursery is a chaotic mess, there is still a lot of organizing to do around the house, and I have yet to really research maternity leave. For now though, I will try and enjoy the month, the season, and moments. We only have a few short months left of being a family of two. I know I will love my life as a family of three but how precious are these moments in our family of two.

Lets enjoy this season and remember what it really is about. A Saviour. Jesus Christ came as a baby with a plan to save us. Save me, my husband, and even my unborn child. Lets spread this amazing love, let us lead the example that God gave us through Jesus. In the hustle and bustle of the season let us remember the baby born in a barn and his gift to the world.

I pray you breath in this Christmas season and surround yourself in the love that this season is about. I hope you enjoy the baking, the parties, the stories and time with family. I hope you create and enjoy past traditions and build memories that will last a life time. Be cheerful in the line up at the stores, enjoy the moments when you are surrounded by strangers in the mall and share smiles while finding the perfect gift for a loved one. Celebrate this season!

While we will be celebrating our last Christmas as a family of two, I pray you too will Celebrate your Christmas...however you have it. Maybe you could share some traditions with me? As I am so excited about creating traditions with my wee one next Christmas.

Groans and Growth.

It is becoming winter. There is a chill in the air that is biting and frost grows thick on the grass in the evening. My belly grows and groans as the child inside me consumes more and more space within my body. Time is passing so quickly, soon enough my wee one will be in my arms and not my belly. I am trying to enjoy each moment of my pregnancy, each kick, hiccup, small moment alone to talk with my wee one. I love the hands of the wee ones I work with as they gently touch my belly saying hi to the small one inside. They use names we've given it and excitedly anticipate it's arrival in "March". Oh how this child is loved.

I read to the wee one in the evening before I go to bed, something I plan to continue as it grows outside of me. That moments peace where I just lay comfortable in my bed surrounded by the warmth of my room. How precious these moments are.

Sometimes I look at my husband and I can already see him as a father. He loves so sweetly and cares so deeply. I am so enjoying these last few months of being two before this wee third comes along, but excitedly anticipate watching him with our child. He will be so great.

My dear child, you are so very loved.

This November.

Fall is slowly turning into winter and people are slowly retreating inside and getting cozy in front of fireplaces (or T.V.'s) curling up under cozy knit blankets with someone they love. It is an excellent time of the year. This year as I sit snugly and safely under my blanket I think of all the changes that came with this year. All of them were exciting, but most were a little scary too. I have a new job, actually two. We are living in a new wee house. Ben started working doing his dream job. The biggest, most exciting and also most scary, change has been having this wee one growing inside me. Last year I was blogging about healthy eating and showing pictures of the weight loss, this year I am posting pictures of my growing belly. Oh how much change a year can bring.

I am so loving washing baby items and finding homes for them within our home. Folding wee clothes and sweet blankets and tucking them away safely in the dresser as I anticipate the arrival of our wee babe in March.

I am loving the kicks and oh the little hiccups that vibrate within me as my babe grows and develops. Oh, how lovely that is. Such a precious and beautiful reminder of the life I have growing within me.


I am loving...skittles, sweet maria's, kit-kat's, just chocolate in general, warm beverages. I am loving pasta, most of the time. Food and I are friends and I am enjoying that.

I am loving my prenatal yoga class. It has been one of the most relaxing things for me this past month. Life has been filling up so it has been so nice to have a weekly scheduled time for relaxation. I love being with so many other ladies who are also experiencing this amazing gift. I love the stretches, I love the vocal toning, I love that so many of the yoga positions that we learn are also positions we can use when we are laboring to bring our babies into the world. 

I am loving the anticipation, the name lists, the expansion of my belly. I feel I am going through a women's right of passage and what an amazing experience. I am so loving being a mom, and I have yet to even hold the wee child my husband and I created. My heart beats so strong for this child and the rhythmic pounding lulls my baby into a comfortable slumber within me. I just can't wait to breath it in and hold it in my arms and smell it as it is soothed by my voice, my smell, my breath, my heart beat. What an amazing time, I wish it would slow down so I can really breath it in and live it to the full; At the same time I wish it would pass faster so I could hold my baby.

Oh my dear baby you are so beautifully and masterfully made by your God and he is taking his time making you perfect.