Musings of The Carrot Flower...: I've been gone...

In oh so many ways. My mind just hasn't been working the way it typically does. My brain just hasn't wrapped round the fact that so much is happening is such a little amount of time. It hasn't began to realize how in such a short time my world will be flipped and I will begin a new, uncharted, adventure. For this adventure there is no map, and I am scared. I know every new adventure is new, and doesn't present itself with a map but, this one, this one is different. With getting married there was anticipation, planning, and the fact that I knew Ben rather well - no duh - and had taken a good eight months planning the wedding and preparing my heart for what was to come. Moving, moving is scary. I am scared. I feel as though I am jumping out of an airplane without a parachute. I am scared therefore, I am procrastinating packing and whatever else needs to be done before we move. Yes, I do that.

Yesterday we had a "goodbye get-together" I had planned it, it was casual. I did it for Ben, because I think he needed it a bit. I am still in disbelief that there was even a need. Someone please tell me that I am dreaming that this is actually happening. I will let you know when the fact has actually sunk in; Until then I will be pleasantly pretending that nothing is changing.

So...for a months worth of updates I will give you some eye candy.

I took a bunch of teenagers (68 to be exact) to camp from July twenty-first till July twenty-eighth, and got to see my little brother for the first time in a month, he is quite the stunner isn't he. I almost began to cry when I saw his face, I have no idea what I am going to do when I move, I will be weepy for a good amount of time.

It was one of the most rewarding experiences ever. I've taken girls to camp before...this was year three but, I've never had a better experience. My girls were awesome! They really got along and got to know each other, I don't think I have ever experienced so much love in a cabin of girls. It is really going to be hard to leave this ladies behind, I've build relationships and it is hard to think that these next few years I am not going to be able to experience it in such a way.

My girls where in love with the tutu's I made...which made the 16 hours of creation worth every minute! We were probably best dressed at the Volleyball tournament! They all looked amazing.

Needless to say, Kelly absolutely loved her purple tutu! Which is AWESOME! Boy will I ever miss this girly! She is amazing and fun and sweet! I love her to death!

What an amazing group of girls I had! I feel so blessed to have such an amazing experience and will probably draw on this experience many many times. Then...after seven days of being away I went home. I hug my husband and cried as I was held in his arms because, as amazing as the experience was it was physically, mentally, and emotionally draining! Worth all of the exhaustion though! Soon, life hit. Packing was real, and I was scared. I escaped through photography. It was nice.