Saturday, April 2, 2011

My Journey

I've been meaning to post, really I have, but every time I sit down to type I feel so uninspired. Today isn't really any different except, except that this morning I feel like I have accomplished something so I am going to post about it.

I thought I would start with a little background into my life. As a child growing up I was fairly small for my age. In my primary grades I was fairly close to average but around fifth grade I was sitting around the 5th percentile for my weight. I was pretty tiny and my mom was worried.

The doctor sent me for testing, I was tested for everything. Looking back my mom thinks I may have had some sort of auto-immune disorder. All this said, I was skinny and my peers started talking, some called me anorexic, bulimic, others just decided I was too skinny to be friends with. Often times I was the only girl who wasn't invited to birthday parties, and kids would moan when they had to have their desks beside mine.

(my sister and I practicing our long jump, she is the one in the air, I am the one landing)

I struggled with my weight for years. I could never keep weight on me and had the hardest time getting to a healthy weight. The Christmas of my grad year I was 5'6" and sitting right around 100lbs, possibly less. I had learned that to be healthy I had to eat a LOT, and yes that was true when I was a child but, soon after I turned twenty things changed and my body started to hold weight. Sadly I didn't know how to eat properly and how to retain a healthy weight because my whole life I had never really learned, I was just told I had to eat more.

So From there:

A year ago today was a very difficult time. I had lost a job a few months prior and was working a very temporary job. I was at my heaviest. I was 160 (plus) pounds, I was very self-conscious. I wasn't healthy and had gained almost 30 pounds in only 6 months. 

Today I can say that I am healthy. I have been working on it for months and have cut a lot of unhealthy habits out of my life, namely coke and fast-food. I am going to the gym regularly and am finally starting to feel good about my appearance and on the whole feel healthy. I am now down to 141 pounds and in the last month alone lost 5 inches from my body. I still have a long way to go, but I have come far and feel so much stronger for it.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
-Eleanor Roosevelt

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Way to go, Laine Jane. You are inspiring!
Love, Kirstinker