June 30th 2012

Dear Baby,

Today I took a test when I got home, a test that told me that I was growing you. Your dad didn't believe it, so he went and bought a digital test, and it confirmed the truth, I am growing you inside of me.

We are so excited. We have been dreaming about you my child, we have been hoping and praying that someday we would be ever so blessed to have you. It is still so surreal. I have a hard time believing it but, it is the truth. Soon we will be filling up our wee house with things for you, a crib, toys and teddy bears, clothes, and so much more. Soon you will be here filling our house with so much joy.

We have so enjoyed being two but we are so excited to make it three. We love you already. Keep growing strong my love.

Mom Loves you.

Expectations and Anticipations

I am someone who anticipates with great gusto. I love the excitement in the wait. I have great expectations for everything and enjoy each minute while anticipating a fantastic grand ending to the wait. With many people they would think, "What are you doing? You are lining yourself up with disappointment!" Lucky for me, my anticipation although great and full and my expectations though large are often also very simplistic. I am easy to please and I enjoy moments of simplicity. 

Not to say that I am never disappointed. I am. It does happen. I guess I just so enjoy the anticipation, the excitement, the waiting that I often look past those occasional disappointments and see the sweetness in the moment and get excited about those. So...right now I enjoy anticipating and the expectations and know that they will be exceeded.

Life, simply, is beautiful.

Summer

I love summer. As a child I lived for it. I love the beaches, I love the fruit, I love the lazy days laying in your back yard reading magazines. I love summer. The thing I loved most though, was going to my grandparents cabin. Oh, the days I spent there. Right on the water, that is the place I learned to swim. The campfires as night where we would all sing "free falling" and my Uncle would play the guitar. Our parents would put us to bed but we would be able to hear them minutes after tucking us in all still chatting by the campfire. The smell of it, I know that may sound weird but I love the smell.

(cousins and I at the cabin)

To me as a child summer was the cabin. This year we have yet to make an appearance, and I long to be at the cabin. I would love to be there with family and friends and enjoy this summer. I would love to walk through the corn maze at DeMille's farmers market, enjoy some gelato at The Pink Cherry, and spend time jumping off the dock seeing who can make the biggest and smallest splash. 

I look forward to years from now when all of us kids have kids of our own and our grandpa takes them on wagon rides pulled behind the ride on lawn mower.
 
We haven't gone yet this summer, and I doubt we will go. I will miss it this year but, next year it is going to be awesome. This year, I will have to learn to have a summer without and enjoy the moments here, at home.

What does summer look or mean to you? What is your symbol of summer?

Waking Up Early.

These past few weeks I have been working 7 days a week, I haven't had a day off in almost three weeks. So, one would think that when I finally get the opportunity, a day off, I'd sleep in. No such luck. I was completely awake by 6:50. I do love early mornings and raising with the sun but, this is just to much. I will most likely end up going to the grocery store picking up some things to make myself a good breakfast, come home, eat, then go back to bed. Ridiculousness. Anyone have any suggestions as to how I can start to sleep in again? It would be very much appreciated.

(a picture of me at the fireworks on Canada Day)

The Last Few Months, a recap.

 The last little while has been busy. Since moving into our house we have really been non-stop full tilt thrown into life. Don't get me wrong, most of it has been very pleasant but there  comes a point where it begins to feel a little much, I think I may be finally reaching that point. 

So, here is a brief summery of our life these past few months.

We tried, and succeeded in fitting 40+ people into our little houses kitchen,

 

We said goodbye to some good friends,

We thoroughly enjoyed the company of my mom and younger siblings,

We worked really hard in fundraisers so that we can get our local kids to camp,

And we had our last Young Life Club.


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On top of all that I've been busy pulling 65+ hour weeks and Ben has been starting the daunting task of fundraising his income so he can start on staff for Young Life hopefully by September (I'm pulling for August). 

I sometimes feel like I am the energizer bunny, I just keep going and going and going. Not all of that going is by choice as much as it is by necessity. I just look forward to getting a little me time. Luckily, I will be getting me time quiet soon, maybe I can slow down a bit....maybe. I do tend to find ways to create busy-ness around myself.


I do plan on getting better and keeping up regularly, just don't hold that to me.